Monday, May 19, 2008
I Don't Understand...
Wow. Lot's have happened in the past day and a half. Sergio, my best friend, said some things last night, and I just honestly, truly do not understand. He keeps saying you're taking it the wrong way and all and he didnt mean anything by it, but that doesn't change the fact that he said it. People do things for reasons, and there has to have been a reason why. But yet, he won't tell me. Things may get all better but that will always be with me no matter what. Friendships take effort, it's not enough... All these things added up don't make me feel any better. And then, I go to school today and after first period, he walks up and hugs me like nothing ever happened! It's just... i don't even know. I may be overreacting but I know what he said, and they all weren't positive. There's nothing he can say that will make me think otherwise. I just need my space right now. Today at lunch was so awkward. He sits with me every tuesday and so I had to sit there, feeling miserable, putting on a fake smile just so it wouldn't be awkward. Oh but it was. I was dieing inside, feeling torn up. I just don't get it. I just don't.
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im sorry. but.... idk. i just think that maybe u r misinterperting things and, well, he just doesn't seem like the kind of person that would really mean that. ur just gonna have to talk to him about it. i don't like seeing u so upset. anyways, tommorow is wednesday. we have almost made it half way through the week! yay! ill c u on the bus tommorow. ily! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
p.s. remember, there's always H.O.P.E. to look forward to. lol. =)
i acted like nothing happened after first cuz i dont feel diferently about u! i've always loved u as a friend, and i always will! and i WANTED to talk to u, but u didnt. u didnt talk to me at all... and then u went and hugged kyla and i felt left out. i even had things i wanted to talk to u about, but since u dont wanna talk to me, i'll just say them here since only kyla, u and me kno about this blog. wanna kno why i had more fun with emily? cuz i got along with all of them. i barely knew kyla and i never TALKED to her. but now, i rly feel like her and i are becoming better friends, but b4 u and her would always have these jokes and i would just be there and sometimes not even be able to hear u cuz the cafeteria is so loud. and when i said relationships take effort, i wuz just stating a fact. it wuz something i read in a book that morning and i can even show u the book and i just remembered it and i said it cuz its true! i was never implying that i or u or anyone wuznt putting too much effort into our relationship. everything was fine until i said taht and u thought i wuz implying that i wuz talking about us. im rly sry for even putting this here and even more sry that ur hurt, but i wanted to tell u this as soon as possible and u didnt want to talk to me, so here... i rly dont want u to lose another good friend and i dont want to lose one either...
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