Ok Best Bus Convo Ever...

Ok yah obviously all of you people already know that kyla and I aren't normal, and are EXTREMELY wierd lol. But ok. So we were on the afternoon bus yesterday and were talking and so here's what happened. We started talking and out of no where im just like ok you know whats scary? and shes like what and im like making out for the first time. im scared to death, i mean, i dont even know what to do. So then kyla's like well i think its just natural. im like but still, its still scary. So shes like ok heres how you make out. stick your tongue down their throat and feel them up! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH nice kyla. And im like oh real nice. And shes like just go with the flow of the ocean and so i try to rill my tongue like a wave and shes like are you practicing making out in the air? haha and im likes yes, yes i am lol. so yah xP. And then yah. Dallas and Kayla broke up. Dallas was really upset and stupid so i called him last night and made sure he was ok ^_^. It was nice cause i hope he sees that i care about him and his wellbeing and am making sure that he never is stupid again. Hear that Dallas, I havent forgotten to slap you xP. But yah. And then we have friday off from school so that's nice. I was gonna see if Dallas wants to come over but he already has plans so im just like ok. So maybe kyla or Max could come over. I was talking to max in class bout him coming over to go swimming in art class so that'd fun. Max is so much fun to hang out with lol. We're always getting in these play fights and messing around and having fun ^_^. But yah.

ORLANDO...

This weekend was SO much fun! Ok ima start from the beginning. Art was awesome friday because max hung out with me and kyla so we all got in this play fight thing and it was fun. And i gave max a tattoo xP. And so then me and kyla got out of school early because we had to meet the team at the gas station but they hadnt even left the school yet so kyla, her mom and i went into this halloween store. And so me and kyla are sitting there having a sword fight and kyla's mom puts an afro on kyla and omg it was SO funny! and then like kyla's mom got hypnotized by a witch haha and then me and kyla's mom started doing the thriller because the song came on xP. everyone was like what the hell? haha. But yah. Turns out me and kyla had to ride with Dallas, Mateo, T-bone and Tyler because the girls van was full. But, im actually glad we got to. I like hanging out with the guys more. They're all more fun and less pissy. I swear this weekend every single girl other than me and kyla wanted to rip another girl's throat out. And then Ashelyn takes things out of proportion and just because someone was mad at her she started writing poems about how her life is miserable and shes all alone. I tried to be nice but i started getting really pissed when she treated kyla liek shit. she did it ALL weekend and all kyla was doing was being nice and wanting to help. And then like, i was sitting with tyler and dallas having a nice convo, and ashelyn notices and sits RIGHT in between them and ruins it all and i swear i should have punched her. But anyways, the car ride up to orlando was so much fun! me, kyla and dallas all hung out. We were playing this game and dallas kept play hitting me so we got in this play fight and yah SO much fun. But we got there and checked in to the hotel and then we all went for a run then went to cici's for dinner. Ashelyn really pissed me off there because she on purposely was pissing off kyla. she started talking about their adoption and how they have brothers and sisters and she was like yah kyla hates talking about it so im gonna talk about it. After that my favorite part of the night was when we went to Downtown Disney Marketplace. We all got to walk around by ourselves and so me and kyla stalked the guys and they stalked us and omg SOO much fun! hahah. Yah. There was one part that i kinda got sad but happy at the same time. We were getting into the car and i got in after dallas but i forgot to wait for the poeple who needed to get to the back. So i had to sit on dallas's lap and then i kinda fell back and he put his hand on my back to catch me and i was just like woah, so this is what its like to be held like that. I mean, i know its kinda stupid and he was just making sure i didnt fall, but i dont know. i felt so safe in his arms and it was just nice. lol look at me rambling. anyways, so we went back to the hotel and RAN to make it to the pool before it closed. And so we all got in the pool and everyone started having chicken fights. And then i got on tyler's back and we were undefeated! WOOO GO TYLER AND ME! haha. But yah. I felt bad because I accidentally scratched Zack on his stomach and it looks really painful. I swear i didnt mean to though, sorry Zack =(. But yah. Then the next day we woke up at 6 and got ready for the race. Everyone kinda sucked liek i got a 26 but i should be getting a 25. But i guess i did ok. i mean, i got 3 minutes off my last time. But yah, we all hung out after the race. I felt so bad for tyler though. He couldnt breath at the end because of allergies or something so once he finished he walked and then sta down panting, so i stayed with him while other poeple walked off. Then dallas came up and us three were having a nice conversation until Ashlynn had to ruin it like i said b4. i swear, if shes not in the spotlight of all the guys, she will make DAMN sure she is. and it pisses me off so much. She thinks it gives her good attention but its giving her bad attention, as in people being annoyed. I love her to death and i feel bad but i need to vent because she just doesnt get hwo obnoxious she can be, even if she doesnt mean to. but yah. The car ride back was blah. Everyone was sleeping and crashed from the weekend. I would have slept but kyla was laying on me so i didnt want to make her move so i sucked it up and stayed awake lol. And then i went home and got the whole house to myself because my sissy had homecoming and my parents went out to dinner. I guess its good to see them actually acting like a couple for once. Well here are some photos of the trip ^_^.

So Many Birthdays...

I cant believe there are so many birthdays in the month of october. Like, Julia's was at the end of september, then Mcauley's was just a few days ago then Britanny's was today. Dude haha. I cant keep up lol. One more day and then I go to Orlando with the team. It's gonna be so much fun! Like, I bought a new bathing suit so I hope we get to go swimming. And then I get to talk to Dallas and hang out with Kyla and the whole team. It's gonna be great. Except TJ and Tyler kind of scare me. The older tyler though, cause there are two tylers on the team. The freshmen Tyler is really cool. He's so nice and all. But then the junior or senior tyler, he just plain scares me. As well as TJ. They act all immature and scary haha. I totally stole Julia's laptop again xP. Apparently it annoys her, sorry Jules. I just love ur laptop hehe ^_^.

Work, More Work and My Grades SUCK...

Ugh. So much work. It's strange though. Lately, i've been making sure i do all my work. Ive been studying, getting good grades and everything. But it's only biology that im struggling in. Mrs. Sauriol called me up today and im like am i gonna like what i see and shes like uh, lemme think no.. i was missing like 5 things, and one of em was even a test! And im like wtf i took that test. but it turns out these corrections were mandatory when i specifically remember her saying they werent. But w/e. I had pretty much everything else. But i was absent for one thing. But like, i saw my grade before i got everything fixed and it was a 63! 4 POINTS FROM AN F!!! And the grades go in next thursday! I have NEVER gotten even a C on a report card. Yah on a progress report but i have NEVER EVER EVER had a grade below a C. And now that it is coming down to this and its all so hard. and of course the one year im struggling this bad its my first year of high school at a gifted school and all my grades on report cards go on my transcript -.-. But i WILL kick butt this year ^_^. I promise you that. And i WILL get this grade up before report card grades go in.

Almost Weekend... I Guess...

Ugh the weekend is almost here. I cant wait just to be able to hang out and talk to all my friends on the cross country team, especially Dallas lol. But w/e. Ok, now school. There is so much homework. I told you the school is trying to ruin our lives lol. But, i know i will pull through. Ima go home, relax, run, eat then homework. What a life huh? SOOO exciting (cough cough sarcasm) lol. I can't wait for christmas this year. I hope I can get my mom a really nice present because she deserves it a lot. But like, not only that, but I really think ima be able to get a macbook. I REALLY want one, it is SO nice and practical and everythin. The programs are awesome and itll be SO easy hiding myspace from my parents. You just use this page thing and it makes it disappear without closing it or putting it on the dock. Myspace here I come ^_^. Haha.

Relationships...

It seems teenagers today dont even care about what a relationship means. Well i mean they do, but many take it for granted. I aint gonna say who or what or why but someone was completely stupid and threw away something that meant a lot to them. I guess i just take that stuff seriously a lot because I had to sit there my entire life and watch my dad neglect my mom and not care. And now that im at the age where im going to be in relationships, I want it to be real you know? Like julia and jack for example. They're a real happy couple and they understand and know what eachother is thinking and wants. They dont mess around or shit like that. I hate when people do that. It's just, why? I mean if you want stuff like that, talk to your boyfriend or girlfriend about it. Dont break their heart over it. I mean, yah there are circumstances that I may not know of or understand, but still. I cant wait till i find that special someone. Ive screwed up a lot before while having a boyfriend. Well, it was only really once, and it was with michael. But i was young and didnt kniow what I was doing. Trust me michael, i feel horrible for breaking up with you not only once but three times =(. Im sorry. But im older now though. I know what thins mean and I always have julia when i need help or advice. I just wish I was given the opportunity. Anyways, I have so much work lately. I have so many projects and it is just SO hard at pineview. Im kind of wishing i could switch. I mean, I have no life and i want one. My mind wants to switch, but my heart doesnt. I love pine view, and everyone in it, i just hate the stress. Projects after projects, book reports, homework, short stories, book reviews its just ugh. And on top of that but I NEVER get to hang out like a normal teenager with my friends. They all live in Sarasota and so it aint liek my mom will drive an hour there and back, then another hour there to pick me up on normal work nights. I mean if i had my license and a car it might be a bit different. But its not, im only 14 -.-. I hate it. I just ugh. I mean i know i am getting a great education and have the BEST friends anyone could ask for, i swear. You compare your friends to mine and i KNOW mine will be so much more kick ass xP. But i never to see em. Im slowly making friends at nopo. So we'll see if i get a friendship with anyone where i can hang out with them outside of cross country. I kind of meet people through nicole, shes one of my best friends. And i go places with her and her friends so i meet people, but im too shy to be like hey we should hang out sometime. Damn shyness -.- lol. Well, halloween is almost here! Im probably gonna have kyla come over for the weekend and we can watch movies and scare all the little kids hehehehe jk jk xP. Idk well see. But yah. And then comes christmas. Then 2009. Isn't it strange how time goes by. Its this holiday, this birthday, this holiday, next year. Then it goes all over again. Whats the point? Wheres the purpose? Wheres the originality or excitement? I mean dont get me wrong i love holidays and everyone getting together and all of that fun stuff, I just wish I could do more stuff in between them. Basically, I WANT A LIFE! My own life, no dictation of parents, no rules of oh you have to be home here or you have to plan ahead of time, I just want a life. Im growing up too fast, but ive always been the more mature person. Always. Ive always had, no, HAD to do stuff on my own. I hate when people try to do stuff for me or go places for me when I can do it perfectly fine on my own. Its so annoying to me. Its my life, my choice, my heart, my mind, my decision, MY life.

Driving...

Today I got to go on backroads and drive for about an hour. It was so much fun! And i did really good too. I did as if ive been driving for ever lol. Yah I messed up once or twice when stopping too hard but that was it lol. But yah, ive just been really sad lately with Kido dieing and all. I really miss him and I walk in my room and it is so empty. I miss him so much. He was my baby =(. But yah. Today's run was a bit hard. My legs hurt like hell but i kept going, so you should be proud kyla haha.

Cross Country Meet...

Well im gonna start from friday night cause that was kinda big i guess. I went to the mall with my friend nicole and yah it was really fun. We met up with her two friends Shane and Steven and they were nice. Steven really likes nicole and i feel bad because she's kinda torn between the two. But i knwo shell make the right choice ^_^. Of course I got yelled at though because I didnt call when I did, a million times, both numbers. She just was looking on the wrong side of the mall. And of course she jumps out of the car when she sees me and walks up in front of EVERYONE and screams at me and im like WHAT THE FUCK but oh well. It was a miscommunication and we both apologized so ugh.. w/e lol. But then the next day i had to get up at 4 in the fucking morning -.-. But it was ok. We had a xc meet and it was AWESOME. I did horrible in time but hey, I just lost my ghecko, i didnt feel good and i was tired. I WILL do better at disney next weekend. And Dallas made it onto varsity ^_^. CONGRATULATIONS! So now I can hang with him at the hotel in orlando ^_^. But yah. It was fun though because we got into this HUGE water fight and me and tyler soaked Dennis with FREEZING water! I felt SO bad lol. And then afterwards I went to kyla's for a bit. We had fun. Me and her mom ganged up on her and sergio lol. But were just joking kyla. It all fun, nothing serious haha ^_^. I buried Kido yesterday. It was really sad. But I know he's in a better place. I miss you buddy.

May Kido Rest In Peace... I Love You With All My Heart...

Well, today was a really sad day. Kido, my leopard ghecko, has been having a lot of problems health wise. And, he hasnt been eating and all. Well, this morning I woke up and went to mist him first thing, and he didnt move like he usually does. He has been looking so horrible his legs wouldnt work and he wouldnt walk and wouldnt eat. But so he wouldnt move. And so i tried picking him up and I knew he was gone. Kido Unsinger passed the morning of 10/03/08. I will miss him soo much. I cant help but feel horrible about it because like, I tried feeding him for hours and he jsut wouldnt. But, I have to think of this as a good thing kind of because now he wont suffer anymore. And he can rest in peace. I love you kido. But yah, i was crying all this morning. But then all my wonderful friends kept chearing me up. I dont know what I would do without them. I would literally kill myself. Thank you guys for being the best family anyone could ever have. I have a cross country party tonight but I dont know if i want to go yet. Its just kinda awkward because all these girls look totally awesome in these cool bikinis and here i am sitting there in this old, worn down bathing suit and trunks -.- Way to look good Ashli, real smooth lol. But yah. I got like no sleep last night so im really drowsy haha. Ugh, Im glad it is the weekend. Theres a cross country meet tomorrow so ill get to see Dallas, so I guess that is good. I havent been talking to him a lot lately so w/e. He does have a gf and they do look really cute together. Id feel horrible if i got in the way of that. But that dont mean we cant be friends ^_^. I LOVE YOU KIDO! I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!

Birds...

Today was so annoying. I had to take care of the birds all by myself and of course it was the last day to do it so i had all this work i had to do. I did it the last day last time too. I swear i think amber plans to leave the very last day so she doesnt have to do all of the work. But anyways, today was so much fun! i swear we spun around again at lunch xP. im trying to get the video i made of yesterday it is so sweet xP. But yah, and that was that and then like i did ok in johnston on our book reviews. I actually think im gonna do ok! ^_^. But yah, Im really bored. I need something to do haha. Like, tomorrow im going to a cross country pool party, WOO lol. And then saturday there is another cross country meet. Im gonna try my hardest to keep up with kyla this time. If i can do that through out the whole race, ill be so happy! ^_^. I get nervous jsut thinking about it haha. But yah. No one is ever on myspace anymore -.- hahaha. And then on top of that but no one ever answers the phone lol. Im so lonely, I have no body, on my own OOOOHHHH hahaha jk jk lol. But seriously, bout the phone or myspace haha xP.