Ok Lots Has Happened...

Well, I got lots to fill you all up on so yah. Well the main thing, of course. Dallas. Well, i was sleeping one night and then out of no where Dallas calls  me at like 11 at night and we were talking till 3 in the morning. and i guess he pretty much told me that he liked me and wanted to date me and is just waiting for the right time to ask or something. So of course i was happy. He was being so sweet and what not. And, i like him a lot. So ive talked to him a few times since and hope i can see him. But, then, i got kinda doubts in my head. I mean, he has been with quite a few girls, and... dont get me wrong i think he means what he says, but, when he would talk to me and compliment me and stuff, all i could think was, "Yah how many girls have you told that to?" but i was talking to emily and shes rite. the only way i can ever know if he truly means what he says or not, is if i take a chance. if it doesnt work, then i can end it and ill always have my friends to fall back on. but who knows, it could turn into something wonderful. so, the doubts kinda had disappeared. we'll just have to see what happens. Anyways, i got a 100 on my biology notebook. I was so proud. I waited till the last day to do it yet i got a 100. there's procrastination at its best for ya haha. Well, in french we have to do this "rock opera" on the french revolution. its kinda cool. i mean, id rather do it than normal class work. Omg. ok, this morning, i found something out about my sister. last nite, she kept consistently trying to be able to skip her first class today. and it was pissing my mom off. amber just kept saying she just didnt wanna go since she has a half day today anyways. but, then this morning, when my mom said no, amber got all worried. and she told us this bitch named jenna is picking on her and her friend brianna. calling them fat and what not. and shes like its been going on for 2 weeks. but, i just know this is all because of fucking nicole. amber's friend who hates brianna. nicole like completely backstabbed brianna last year, and brianna is a nice girl. so, im just like nu uh. and i mean come on, jenna is friends with nicole. shes calling my sister fat. but compared to nicole, my sister is an ant while nicole is an elephant. the girls fucking huge! she has to even wear ankle braces because her weight crushes them. the little bitch. so i told amber, if she has anymore problems with this girl, im going down to your school and im gonna kick the SHIT OUT OF THAT BITCH JENNA AND NICOLE!!!! im not letting them destroy my sister's high school years that are supposed to be wonderful. So fuck that, i got your back amber. but yah. emily and austin are doing good. im glad for them. everything worked out perfectly for them. (: well, im on the bus right now and its frickin cold outside haha. so... im just like ehhh. OMG I RAN LAST NITE!!!!! i ran for the 1st time in like 5 weeks. it felt soooo good!!!! i forgot how relaxing running is. my dad, mom and sister and i all went down to the heron creek track. i was proud of my family because they all got out there and got speed walking. so i was proud. i was proud of myself too cause i ran 3 miles nonstop. didnt stop once. take that for not running in a while xP. haha. it was so nice tho. it was. the last half of the last lap, so my 12th lap, i sprinted all out down the side. in my head i was just like, "dont stop ashli. go all the way through the finish line" haha. i love cross country! but yah. im just so happy that my mom, dad and amber got out there and did at least something. they're always complaining how im such a toothpick and what not. and i know they say it jokingly but it hurts. i mean, its not my fault im just naturally skinnier and taller than them. how can i help that? and if they have issues with their bodies, get out there and do something about it. dont sit there and take it out on me, because honestly i cant handle anymore lol. everybody takes all their issues out on me in this family, so im done. thats why i have been so pissed off and having a temper lately. after i got in that huge fight with my dad, i realized how little they care about using me. i mean, dont get all pissed at your daughter or sister for something that she didnt even do. and so, since i kinda feel cornered i guess, im gonna fight back. try and get out of that corner. i know it takes work to be a loving family, but i mean come on. and i know that in a family it should be a certain hierarchy, but, since ive had to see the things that i have ive grown up a lot faster than i would have regularly. and, its my life, my world. so in MY world, im on the top of the hierarchy and no one can take that away.